Facing the facts

The fact is that I dont have all that much time left to finish everything I planned to do before I die. I am not trying to be morbid ( although I admit that does sound a bit creepy ) But realistically at almost 71 with C.O.P.D. I could pop off at any time. I did so want to make a name for myself in my chosen field- that of artisitc expression. So I guess my point is that I had better get off my butt and get busy ! Which brings me to today's agenda.
1. Wake up
2. Get out of bed
3. Clean the cat box
4. Say "good morning" to David
5. Take my pills
6. Pour a cup of coffee
7. (if it was a weekday I'd check out the stock market on CNBC)
8. Cry, because the markets stinks
9. Suck it up and start thinking positively
10. Check out the progress on my latest Halloween art project which is a photo cube with little Halloween scenes painted on each of 4 inserts which can be removed and replaced with the owners own Halloween photos. I sculpted a tiny black cat and a tiny camera to glue to the top but I am not happy with them so far.
11. Rethink the ideas for the top of the cube
12. This is where I clear my head and put the project on the back burner .
13. Now is when I finally open my PC and check out my messages- answer or delete depending on my mood. Every day I click on the animal rescue site to feed the kitties and doggies. It only takes a second and I feel I have helped feed some poor little thing. Next I click on the Human Society site to do the same thing.
14. Here's where I visit my groups on ebay or if I have something up for bid I check that first. I read what I want on Ha31 and BWBA and add comments or not.
15. That done, this is where I am suppose to "get off my butt" and get busy. but far too often sit in a daze with thoughts whirling around in my brain and mindlessly staring at the TV or looking out the window.
16. Today I know I have to ( or GET to) go meet a friends I haven't seen for over 20 years for lunch. In a way I am looking forward to seeing her and in another way I am just wanting to stay home and be a hermit. What is wrong with me?

21. For now I guess I will just sit here and stare ou the window until I can come up with an answer for that last question.